April 24, 2013
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right now
Right now our house seems to be overflowing with people who have loose teeth. It’s like there’s a new one every other day.
Right now the soft spring sunsets, first of the season’s line-dried towels, cosmos reaching for the sun in the plant room, spring wind drying up the mud, and happy voices of children playing on the swings almost make up for the brown of the grass and the trash on the roadsides.
ALMOST, I say.
Right not it’s the time of year when I know I’ve misssed my calling. Snow melting everywhere and unearthing all kinds of ugliness, I know I should have been a trash-picker-upper. Either that or a trash policeman. Disguised in brown, I’d hide in the wide Alberta ditches. And WOE to You if You Litter!!! Trash angers me deep inside. It’s the pettest of all my peeves.
Right now Natalia is 7. She had an MRI in Grande Prairie the day before her birthday because she has near deafness in one ear and they want to make sure there’s not a tumor or something. I haven’t been worrying much, but it’s kind of a strange hearing loss, without any obvious reason. She loves her piano playing and I just pray that it never affects her musical ear. After the MRI, we went to the toy store and she picked out Celeste, a princess doll with long blonde hair. Long hair is a necessity when you are 7.
(The one spot where you can see the Rockies on the way home from Grande Prairie.)^^^^^
Natalia’s favorite book right now is These Happy Golden Years. I think Laura and Almanzo’s romance intrigues her.
She learned in her Social Studies lightunit at school that when we pray we talk to God and when we read the Bible He talks to us. She has taken this very seriously and is reading her Bible every night. She has things to say about what she finds there.
“Was David actually a good king?”
Well yes.
“But he killed SO many people!”
Indeed he did.
“MOM! Did you know that Job had 3000 cattle and 7000 sheep?”
The other night when I went down to the girls’ room to say prayers, she had a funny look on her face.
“Mom, I read this whole page and it’s just SO weird!”
It was Song of Solomon.
She’s a little gap-toothed honey.
Right now this could describe parenting for me.
“The best way I can describe it is: it’s awful, awful, awful, awful, and then
something incredible happens. And then it’s awful, awful, awful, awful, awful,
awful and then something incredible happens again. It’s like this all day every
day. I feel like I’m drowning, like I’m gasping to get my old life back. And
then, a small moment happens that’s perfect, that’s so magical, so
life-affirming that it makes it all worth while. This will be the best thing you
ever do.” -random guy in a playground in a movie that I’m not proud that I watched-(edit: Ok…this is exaggerated a bit. Subtract a few awfuls.
) Right now there are new babies all around us. There’s little great-niece Adalyn and my neighbor Joanna’s Gareth. Everywhere I look there seems to be babies. I feel the pain of childbirth with new moms. And those agonizing afterpains. It all ties together with death and life and spring and hope in a way I can’t really put into words.
And there are baby calves too, a few of them brought into the garage in a spring snowstorm. I love to watch Dan feeding the ones that have a slow start, So big, yet so gentle with all babies.
Right now this song keeps going through my mind, the eyes and souls of all of us in the north starved for green and warmth. We had it on a record of The Messengers from eons ago.
Lord, to my heart bring back the springtime.
Take away the cold and dark of sin.
Oh refill me now, sweet Holy Spirit:
May I warm and tender be again.
Right now I need to bake bars and make soup. It’s too bad that blogging is so much fun but takes so much time.
Comments (8)
i absolutely love that picture of you and your two girls! stunning!
so funny about a 7 year old reading song of solomon! love it!
You are so beautiful. I’m sorry about your daughter’s hearing. Praying that it returns!
That quote made me laugh.
Beautiful song lyrics, perfect for springtime.
Hugs.
I am deaf in one ear and it looks like my one daughter is too . We were born that way. My husband is also deaf in one eat but he had a growth in it that they had to remove the ear drum . I am a natural worrier too… We have lots of mud these days too… And cold!!! So ready for warmth n flowers n flip flops.
The quote was funny but what you said about it being a movie you weren’t proud you watched made me laugh too. I’m forever watching a movie and thinking, well, I’ll never get that two hours of my life back. ha. Glad to know someone else occasionally does that too.
Love the pictures!
I’ve missed you.
What a beautiful post!
I’m missed you, too.
I loved Natalia’s reaction to the Song of Solomon. If she only knew…
I’ll pray for her hearing problems. Hopefully you’ll find out the MRI results soon.
Song of Solomon! That made me laugh. Good to hear from you again Luci–I hope the mud will leave you soon. I can barely enjoy the blooming flowers in our yard because I know they’ll be gone so soon-isn’t that sad?
It actually seems as though you are getting spring before we do here! How can that be?? Loved reading all of the little tidbits about your life right now. Beautiful sunset picture, also!!
The thing that caught my eye the most, though, was that quote from the movie. Because I so get what he is saying. And now I am really curious what movie it is from and if there are other stellar quotes in it. Maybe you can private mesasge me with that info!